more ends

yesterday was interminable and exhausting
we had a formal 2 hour long critique with 10 different people
some of whom i knew, some i didn't
i got some really good suggestions for ways to push it further
but the response was primarily positive
everyone seemed to really get that i had chosen something
that was difficult to understand, and made it really clear
so that was gratifying
the only hard thing was seeing things
that i wish i could go back and do better

then i had to hang around for 3 hours and wait for "closing comments"
which was self aggrandizing, pompous, arrogant crap
so glad i didn't miss that....

it was really refreshing to have new objective insights
from people who had never seen my project before
the whole thing was extremely stressful though
having to talk it up each time in a new way
and mentally ticking off who had been by already
and who was still yet to come
all with varying degrees of anxiety
it is such a relief to have that be over

monday i have my final final crit
and i have quite a few things i need to get done this weekend
we have to all come in at noon for a meeting about our senior show
and my crit is at 2 , and they always run late
so i am sure that i will be sitting around there for a good 4-5 hours
after all of that i hope we will be going somewhere
for some decompressing libations

next week i REALLY need to finish my portfolios
and clean the house.....

it feels completely surreal
it isn't quite hitting me that this is all done